just a quick update :)
made it safe and sound to nashville with my mom and am ready to spend the next three days celebrating life and enjoying my time away from home. my one year of recovery is tomorrow, so i am celebrating! i also get to see some of my precious friends tomorrow for dinner. i'm so grateful to still have a relationship with my mom as close as ours is, after all that i put her and the rest of my family through. i wouldn't blame them if they had given up on me, but they didn't...and for that, i am eternally thankful AND blessed! i love being able to spend one on one time with my mom as well as one on one time with my dad. i really feel like i am getting a second chance at a relationship with them.
anyway, so far so good. i did have a little mini meltdown when i was getting ready to go to dinner tonight. i'm hormonal, of course, but i just couldn't get anything to go right. my hair wouldn't cooperate, my clothes didn't fit right, and body image basically sucked. i got all frazzled and almost said "let's not go anywhere" but we are here to have fun and that is exactly what i am going to do! so i pushed stuff aside, decided to at least pretend like i had some confidence and guess what? i ended up having a pretty good night!
it's amazing what a simple change in mindset can do :)
anyway, off to bed.
night <3
YAY :) I am so happy you are able to have some one on one time with your mom. You are right, you are so blessed to have the relationship you have with her! I am a tad jealous ;) I am glad that you went out despite feeling overwhelmed and yucky. Sometimes pushing through the moment and doing what was planned is the best idea! Enjoy :)
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